Everlasting~

Hmmm..something have been going on my mind now..thus, i decided to let it out better to keep it on own~I'm wandering will something or someone last forever..what i mean by forever is..it would not change by time or any circumstances..but, i guessed the answer is NO..no matter what it is, forever or everlasting will not happen..or..it can happen but, in few percentages..Things or people will change as time pass by..the time can be as short as 1 second..Thus, it helps to summarized that everlasting is hardly to happens..

Ok..i not trying to be pessimist here~but, this thinking sometimes will pop into my mind out of nowhere..and i tend to think about it.Maybe, i am thinking too much.But, i cannot stop myself from thinking about and..my mood for the day surely will be affected~

Example of the changing is: In this minute someone is very indeed good to you but..in other second he/she can be very cunning..it very hard to predict someone mind..or..maybe for all the while you thinks that he/she is a very person but..deep inside nobody know and he/she maybe changing second by second..THUS, nothing can lasts*

Some people says that..true love will lasts forever. But, who knows..what will happen in next second..still..do not lose hope on what you all believe..just hold on to it and do not let go of it*

P/S: Maybe you all..does not really understand what the craps i have been blogging here..its OK..because i just want to blog and let out my thinking~sigh~

7pm~

Yesterday..after work..i went to Ipoh Parade because..i already date one of my bestie, Miss Atan at there..she arrived there about 6pm something..and at 7pm, we just started to eat at kopitiam which is our first stop at Ipoh Parade..The motive for the day is..to buy wedding pressie for my secondary school mate which we have not see each other some time..i think maybe more than 3 years since the day we finished our Form 6..

We walked around the mall..and stopped at Parkson whereas we decided to bought her a dinner set which is suitable for her new life that will start after her wedding on this Saturday..and also, we bought a small card for her..the card really is a small card..but, is a nice small card..kekekeke~~

Oh ya, tell you all something ya~For my this month target, everything have to be cancel ed because..all my targets have gone like winds..tata to them..i will never see them again unless someone use them in front of me..The targets that have gone are..the most worth cardigan/sweater that is blue colour, the blue colour swoosh Nike shoes and..also, the black elegant bag that is suitable for me and good-looking..really OMG!!tata to all of them~i guessed i have to find another targets for next month..sob sob*

Miss Atan also, have borrow me one of her book's collections which i have aimed to buy and read long time ago..but, not manage to make it..thanks to Atan because willing to pinjam her book to me..i feel so grateful~hehehe..i will finish read it as soon as possible and return it to you..*PEACE*kekekeke~~ 

33 Months~

Yesterday is..23rd of May which is OUR 33rd Months Anniversary~~wuhhooo~~another 3 months we will be officially together for 3 years..OMG!!such a long time already..time really fly by so fast without we even realize..

On 22nd of May, time:11.48pm, he sent message to me but too bad..because at that time i already asleep~kekekeke*he wish me Happy Anniversary..he sent it early because he want to sleep already and cannot wait till the next day..i never thought of that he will remember our special day for the month..but, in the end is me that end up sleeping and did not wish him..but, tomorrow morning..i woke up and wish him back..he say that he remember the day~sweet*

Although we have been together for some time, it can be consider as short and also long..but, i cherish every moment we spend together..and also, i appreciate the time we are together..*Muaksss*

~Think too muchie

I wonder..how can someone stop from thinking too much ya..because..this type of thinking does not bring benefits to me and it brings harm to me..to my emotions and mood~~oh gosh!!!i hate this for happen..but, we cannot stop from thinking too much..i know that we can change our thinking but, sometimes it is very HARD..

~I hope i can put this face inside and outside of me~

Recently, i tend to think too much..i trying to stop thinking about it and stay positive..but, sometimes i cannot stop myself from thinking about it..sometimes, just a small thing only can make me think too much and broke my positivity..i wish i was stronger and more optimist..Things around me always make me think too muchie..can you please stop me from thinking too much by giving me an assurance. But, i guess the answer is NO..I knew it..*sigh*life is not  bed of roses..it never was for me~

P/S:Please be positive~

Face Shop~

Yesterday..i went to kai-kai with Miss Apple Peng..and coincidentally, i want to buy facial cleanser and..at that time, the face shop is doing some sales whereas most of the items is 30% discount..so OMG~~i browse through the products in the shop..i fell in love with the cleanser and also, the colourful nail polish. I love it alot..i regretted because last week, i just bought two nail polish from Etude House and..the face shop's nail polish is cheaper compared with it. What to do~~I just have to hold myself from buying anymore nail polish..sob sob*tata my nail polisher*i will buy you one day..but, i have bring home one of the facial cleanser which is made from aloe vera..hope the cleanser is good to use and i will try it soon~~wuhoooo!!!

My Aunt

Yesterday..when i just arrived home, my mum told me that~my aunt which is my mum's big brother wife have passed away. It such a shocking news to me..because few days ago..my mum told me that she just went out from hospital to her home because she is fully recovered already. And this make me question the doctors..since they all say that she is recovered then why now..so suddenly..OMG!!!what is the doctors at the specific hospital doing..patients depends on them..and this is what they get..really OMG!!!

Then around..8pm, we went out to a shop where my aunt's body is place there for praying purpose..we, relatives sit at there till 10pm something, then we went home because my sis want to prepare her things to trip..

During the moments at the shop, i recalled back some of the memories between me and my aunt..i remember the times whereas she come and overnight, we have pillow talk together. My sis and I like to be with her..and gossips together..we can talk whatever we want..as time past by, we grew up, lesser time spend with her and often, we heard news about her from my mum and relatives..So many things happen to her, and i felt pity for her because she is a widow and her child's stay far from her and neglect her..before she become ill, she went to old folks home and just stay there for 2 days before she is admitted to hospital..what a sad case..because she really is a caring and good mother..she does not have temper and tend to take care of her child properly..but, now..this is what she get..i really felt very sad for her and by thinking of this..it make my eyes wet~~Please Bless Her~~

Shupping Sunday~~

 ~One of the items that i bought home~

Yesterday..sunday..i went out with my mum and sis..we went to our favourite hangout place, Ipoh Parade..we arrived there around 11am after our breakfast at nearby..we walked and walked..and finally bought something..i like to buy things but..too bad..i very broke already and wish i got more cash so that, i can freely enjoy my shopping spree..but, it's ok..better than cannot shopping..wuhooo~~

Oh ya..during my shopping trip..i found many targets..here, i list down my targets:

• Nike Shoes which the swoosh is in blue colour or..pink colour will do..
• A black colour bag that suitable for work and hang out~
• Dark blue cardigan..which is a STEAL because it was so cheap..OMG!!!
• A pair of skinny jeans which is black colour..

*If i was rich, it would be so good..because i can buy all i want..~From:Uncontrollable Me~

Mother's Day

After i took my Miss Pinky home, i prepared to go out eat dinner with my parents..at first, we want to go 'Yum Yum' eat but..due to the reason that it was fully reserved. We have to go other place to eat..and we choose Tuck Kee Restaurant..The place was so packed but luckily the foods served fast and efficiently..hehehe..if not, we have to bear with our hungriness..also, on that day..we celebrate my dad's birthday together with mother's day..that was the end of the makan-makan session for that night~~wuhooo~~

Miss Pinky~

Saturday, around 5pm, i went to take my new hp.wuhoo~~finally i can owned and touched it..actually, i can take it on friday after survey with my kawan, Miss Atan..but, just left one set only for my favourite colour, pink..thus, i let my kawan to have it first..because i can wait..

My new hp is called Miss Pinky and she is very beautiful..i like her alot..pink in colour..and i definitely will use it for a very, very long time as long as it can lasts until that day..hehe~~welcome Miss Pinky!!!

Grey

There are moments in your life whereas you will feel GREY..what i mean at here is..those moments whereas you will feel disappointed or fed up with life..when you are at these point, you will feel unmotivated and down no matter what others do to cheer you up. I currently is at these point..so GREY and it was like a bunch of grey clouds at top of my head and raining down on me from head to bottom of me..GREY..i just wish i can leave these point soon, because i do not like this feelings. There are so many negatives things going on my head now and i seems to become so pessimist..OMG!!please leave me soon ya, Miss Grey~

What brings me to these point is..i just wonder why some kind of people is so mean..and not satisfy with what they have or own. Yet, they still ask for more as if what they have now is not enough..also, they thought that..they is very superior..or very magnificent..OMG!!please you all..please do not feel so proud of yourself and do not ever think that you are perfect..you are just lucky ok??but..who know..your lucks can last till when..i just can say God Bless You~~

P/S:I felt better by writing out how i felt now~And..for those who are arrogant, please change yourself before, you piss me off..and i am leaving the Grey point now..hope, those who is these point can get rid of it soon~~peace*

An Ordinary Day~

Today~is Saturday..which is like my ordinary Saturday since i start work already..woke up at 6am something and get ready to work..i eat one of my favourite foods today for breakfast which is fishballs mee and yeong tau fu..yummy..

After i arrived at work, i feel so sleepy and do not know what to do because no mood due to sleepiness..thus, i wrote this post..i cannot wait the time whereas i can go home, lye on my bed and continue reading my novel..i now counting down to 1pm..oh, gosh!!is seems very long time and my eyes getting heavier and..will close any minutes from now..NO!!NO!!!i cannot fall asleep..if not later my so-called good ah head come, and see me sleeping..I must add oil to stay awake..

I now still thinking what to do..oh ya!!there is something going on my mind now..i thinking whether want to buy air tickets to go back Kota Kinabalu, Sabah or not..i planned to go back in July but..it seems very long time because now..just beginning of May..i count and count..i have to wait at least two months only can go back and see him..such a long time..*sigh*but, is better than cannot see him..if i going back on July, that mean i have not see him for 6 months or half-a-year which is quite long compared with last last time..i felt regretted because did not buy the tickets earlier..but, nevermind..what pass is past..i now still thinking about the tickets..i just a click away to buy the tickets..buy or not buy..not buy or buy..brrrooommm..i decided already..i now will immediately buy the tickets..so, i finished at here..hehehe..*

P/S:Just want to share with you all with one phrase that i saw today during my surfing time..it is so meaningful yet, is sweet.."I would walk a million miles, just to be with YOU"**sweet**

Coming~~

Today is..4th of May 2010 and..tomorrow is 5th of May which is my special one big day~~He will turn 24th tomorrow but..i cannot celebrate his big day on the actual day, which i maybe will celebrate with him few months later..what a sad case~~but, fate put us on this situation, and i accepted it with my whole heart..

I still remember..last year, Year 2009..i celebrated his big day together whereas i have planned a surprise for him with my friend..and also last last year, Year 2008, we also celebrated it together but..i remember he was angry and mad at me that day, and did not talk with me until the dinner with my group of friends is over..He make the first move to talk back to me and the venue is at Tanjung Aru Beach. I wonder..he still remember this incident or not..but, nevermind..because i still remember it clearly..that night, he wore the green t-shirt that i gave him and it looks nice on him..hehehe~~i wandering again..whether he will remember me or not on this special day, what clothes will he wear, how he will celebrate his big day, who he will celebrate with and the wondering lists going long and long..

Yet, i hope..he will enjoy his this year big day and may all his wishes come T.R.U.E..i will celebrate with you few months later, wait me ya although there are no fancy foods for you~~hehehe~~

♥♥~HappY 24th BirthdaY, Jon Jon~